MyLoveWillCome.

Lmao @ my facade.
I feel horrible at the moment. I need my great-granny right now, like so srs.
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What's even more fucked up that everyone thinks it's a travesty that I'm having a bad day. Whompidy.

And all you wanted was somebody who cared.

What am I doing tomorrow.

Nothing's Gunna Make You Fall From Heaven.

[sigh]
I think it's time to let go.
I'm not blaming you whatsoever, actually it's my fault.
I want my cake, & I'd like to eat it too.
The world doesn't work like that, I know.
I want you to be happy, and I definitely don't want to be the reason why you hurt.
Not anymore.
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Be happy.
You're free from the disappointment who goes by the name of India Donielle Smith.

Poop.

I`m sitting here crying to Dontchange by Musiq.
It makes me think of Dino.
& I`m pretty sure this is like his theme song whenever he sees me.

I feel really bad for putting him through all the shit that I have.
Like, my heart really hurts. =(
Mbah.

You're my superfreak.

Freak Though - T.I. ^_^.

Lately it seems as if I'm my only 'happy' friend. Sure, we bring the best out of each other when we're around each other but I don't believe anyone is just .. content with life at the moment. Call me simple, but I'm just happy to be breathing at the moment. I don't care about my grades, where I'll be sleeping in a few months, or what will even HAPPEN in a few months. I'm just happy to be here NOW.
Not everyone feels that way, and I sense it.
I'm just living life at the moment. Once I get this research paper out of the way, I'm in the free clearing for graduation, so I`m goooood.
I got a 3.6 on my latest report card. What's sucky about that shit is that I REALLY DIDN'T FUCKING TRY. Ain't that a bitch, though? I`ve missed 13 days of French, but still got a B.
I should really do my homework. I'll do it eventually.


Our elongated trek around my corner the other day/night lifted a huge weight off of my shoulders. You don't know how bad secrets weather my body. It's fucking ridiculous.
Why in the fuck are these planes flying so close to my house?!

I keep having dreams that I'm really cool with everyone in Finally Famous. I feel like a creep. I just really like the thought of a group of people that are actually thriving for their dreams. They're like my friends, but in another industry, I suppose.

Ok, I`m really about to do my source cards and whatnot. =(.

I have a feeling that Indie is on her way to being 'known'. ^_^ [Sorryyy about these shitty blog posts. they'll get better, I promise.]

NERD was fucking amazing last night.
Pharrell sang to me ^_^.
Fuck those crowdsurfers though.

she see my wrist blue & yellow like michigan.

eyeeee am not having a very good day, for some random reasons. i'm just really upset. and my stomach hurts. and i'm wearing my glasses. all of that equates a bad day. and the oven keeps stalling at random moments. that pisses me off too.
today dino and i talked about us. he said that he told all of the girls that he was talking to that we're back together and L is the only one that had a problem with it. =\. truthfully i really feel bad for that chick. she was brought into the picture under unfortunate circumstances and she got attached. my heart goes out to her, and i'm so serious. no sarcasm here.
so anyways, back to us. it's hard to explain. i want us to be together eventually, but it's like a 'now or never' kind of thing. i don't want it to be either one of those choices. i hate it.
i think V is mad at me because i didn't want him to come over today. eek. he hasn't texted me since earlier and that's pretty strange.
speaking of he and i ... i think we'd be good together but it's like he's the rebound and that's really not good. i know he doesn't see it that way because he's been trying to get with me since 9th grade and he's just happy to have me in his life... that makes me sad a bit also. i don't want to let him down once more. dino said that that's my problem: my fear of letting people down. idk. idk what to do. like, at all.
i should just not date, huh?

Eeks.

Indie, Don't Do It.

I'm trying to describe how my night transpired:
WEED.
There we go.
Never again.

In other words, I`m letting go of this relationship. Hard decision, but Brandon needs to find his way by himself. I`m tired of being the crutch. No more falling back on me.

Have a great Easter, everyone.

Put up the peace sign..

.... putcha index down.

Yesterday was pretty great.
Went to Charles' house.
Watched everyone get inebriated.
Left.
Discovered some things.

Yep, that was awesome. Hopefully I get to experience a Lil' Wayne/T-Pain/Keri Hilson concert tonight, but if I don't I`ll be fine. I`ll just call up the girls, or something. ^_^.
Off to the mall, I am!

I betcha never seen it like thisss.

I love my friends.
They're the only people I can play Hide 'n' Seek with in the pitch black dark with ... with me in a flimsy skirt and Chucks on.
They're the only people I can 4-way kiss or 3 second kiss [I WANT MY OTHER 7 SECONDS].
They're the only people I can steal movies from. [OotP, YUS].
They're the only people I can show my bum to and they'll praise it.
They're the only people I can be me around!
Yaaaaaay!

Today was awesome. My spring break won't be TOTALLY horrible. ^_^
Until next timeeeee.

SPECIAL GUEST : Key Key Da Baws!

THIS IS A DUO PRODUCTION BETWEEN KEY KEY DA BAWS ET MCINDO.

WE ARE DISCUSSING BOYS WE'RE PHYSICALLY ATTRACTED TO. THIS DOES NOT NECESSARILY MEAN THAT WE WANT TO EFF THEM, BUT IF THE TIME CAME UP WE WOULD NOT CLAIM WE WERE ON OUR PERIODS. -Key.

SRS COULD GET IT. THE BEENEEZ, YOU DIG?! -Indie.

M PROBABLY WILL GET IT. NOT NOW ... BUT, BUT EVENTUALLY. -Key.

[thinks] THIS IS ALWAYS HARD WHEN YOU HAVE TO WRITE IT DOWN. D IS INDEED GETTING THE BEEZNEEZ. I WOULD HALT MY PERIOD FOR THAT NIGGA. ^_^ -Indie.


MH .. AIN'T MET YOU YET, BUT WHEN I DO, YOU GONE B SCREAMIN' MY DAMN NAME. MY FACEBOOK ONE. - Key.

JCB COULD GET IT. MAAAAN, I WISH I WOULD'VE NEVER STOPPED TALKING TO YOU. -Indie.

DD .. I SEE YOU JUST TAKIN' YO' TIME. DON'T WORRY, I'LL WAIT. - Key.

Hmm! Drug Dealer Man With Nice Car [his name slips me] could get some of my time! Shoood, whip that nice ass car of your's into my school's parking lot one day, sweetie! SHOOOOOOOOOD. -Indie.

F .. your impeccable swag makes me retarded if I DIDN'T want you to smash. So .. do that. How're the next 1-2 years looking on your schedule? - Key.

KIEONA'S DADDY WILL BE GETTING THE BEENEEZ WHEN I GET HOME. ^_^. -Indie.

DA .. you are my friend, one of my verryyy best ones but I'll be damned if you don't get it. & I know you want to, so it'll great! - Key.

V ... you can get it. Because I love big guys. =). Shoood, SHO` ME YO MOVES AND WHATNOT. -Indie.

Tenth Grade Boo .. I'm not waiting on you to turn 18. What if you haven't hit your awkward phase yet?! I can't have you get up in when you get ugly and shit.. CALL ME. - Key. & T and DM, I know you're not supposed to get those from the same crew,but shit changin'. Obama our president. Holla!

FINAL NOTE FROM INDIA : College is going to be interesting. [=.

THIS CONCLUDES OUR DUO PRODUCTION. LOOK FOR MORE!

You know, one day I`m just going to stop caring. I think that's what you want, deep down.
[shrug]

I don't know how to feel.

http://www.tbitw.com/

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It's me and King tonight. On a Friday. I am so lame. I seriously cried because I`m bored. =\.

I've no idea who I`m taking to prom now, because Domo is a dick and I refuse to be bothered with him for practically 12 hours. I refuse.

I`m trying to figure out where my day failed. I feel like shit.